I am
supposed to be cleaning what i could once call my room. now the only appropriate name for it is the place of gigantic messes. however seeing as that is probably one of my least favourite tasks, i’ve decided to preoccupy my time on tumblr instead:) so, my family left me this morning to go to our family friends cottage…i was supposed to go but i decided to stay back last minute. Now im stuck working a shift that starts at 4am tmrw….awesome. i cant help but think theres a possibility i made the wrong decision. i originally decided to stay because my friends and i had plans…and we only have a matter of days before we all move back to school. but should i have gone to just spend the time with my family? is this god-awful shift my punishment for making a wrong decision? what consitutes a wrong decision anyways? i mean, some famous person once said (elenaore roosevelt or someone) there are no mistakes in life, only learned lessons (something along those lines….sorry if you know the quote and im completely botching it lol). so i guess she thought we cant make mistakes because they are just things to be learned from. but what if we dont learn from them. how many times are we allowed to do something without learning from it before it becomes a mistake? besides, wrong decisions arent always apparent…such as this one. i have no idea if i did the wrong thing or not. was it a question of morality? was it morally wrong to put my friends before my family? probably. is that my answer then? I hope not….id rather think they were equally wrong or equally right it it wouldnt have made a difference which one i chose one way or another. i suppose life doesnt work like that, ever. right and wrong need to be less vague. i mean wasnt there once a time when it was just clear cut, black and white what you should and shouldnt do? i think children have very strong moral compasses. its wrong to steal, no matter what. its wrong to lie no matter what. etc. as we get older the “unless” factor comes into it. its wrong to steal, unless your family is starving. its wrong to lie, unless its world war two and you are hiding jews in your basement. all of this grey area is necessary….but makes everything more complicated. its sometimes very difficult to know when you are doing something wrong…especially when everything nowadays comes with an unless. anywho…guess i should go clean now….im pretty sure that would be a good decision; unfortunately.
2 years ago • Notes