So she said..
This isnt happening. I swear.
a passing amusment. a meaningless adrenaline rush in my day. a means to no end. something to do.
Its not happening. I promise.
The jump of my heart is a mere side-effect to playing the game. the rosing of my cheeks is just temporary discolouration due to a miscalculation of chemicals in my brain. The glimmer in my eye is a trick of yours.
Its not happening. I know.
i said it wouldnt. i knew it wouldnt. i hoped it wouldnt.
Its not happening. Is it?
not my type. not my style. not my league.
It cant be.
out of my hands. out of my sight. out of my mind.
It cant be.
not interested. not listing. not fair.
It cant be.
After all that.
It cant be.
he just walked by. one step. one click of the tongue. one wink.
It is.
I swore.
I promised.
I knew.
…I lied.
